as we drift apart, we dont know our hearts.
any longer, anymore.
no more silly topics, no more loveaholics.
time.
Promise you guys i’ll update soon aight? i’m coming up with a story halfway.. so i’ll need more time, been really busy with my work and everything lately
Visit my photojournal if you want something different to look at!
Love,
C.E
My apologies to all the readers(if any) out there, I had been busy with my work, attending dinner events, photo taking and such..
Kept me really occupied, will update soon!
By the way, I just got my flickr site up, be sure to stay tuned for more photographs! but first.. you’ll have to visit http://www.flickr.com/photos/clars-pj
Quote: don’t dream because its over, dont cry because it has happened
don’t tear n say something’s in your eye, be brave to stand and kiss goodbye, be merry and be jolly, don’t forget for peace for harmony.. carpe diem n live tomorrow
Love,
C.E
I’m thinking of children today, thinking about what kind of life they should be living in the future, thinking about the happiness they get to be showered, thinking about them.. just thinking..
I saw a family of two, mother and son today, while on my way to work, one of the busiest places, it was the town filled with working people on the weekdays and party animals during the weekends and festive seasons.. Yes, today might be your yesterday, but today’s today is a Thursday..
They aroused my attention, no offenses but they do not look like belong to the modern society.
Boy’s Mom carries a black polka dotted tote bag, which looks like it was from the 8Os..
Boy carries a retro sling bag, orange and black.. and it looked like it was from one of the 2nd hand marts somehow. He carries a sling-ed water bottle, has messy hair..
Appearance, like i said, its what they are wearing which makes them look special, no sarcasms whatsoever: I can’t recall how boy’s mom dressed herself, so i presume she looks rather ok.. what caught my attention was the boy, dressed in a Cartoon character tee, a pair of shorts that we would only wear to bed nowadays..
Both of them were speaking in cantonese, but i’m pretty sure they are locals.
Surprisingly, boy is giggling along with his mother. I’m definitely sure, they still have their sanity.
Arose from this attention which led me thinking..
We had been pursuing all our materialistic needs and thinking that money is about everything in life..
Have we lost what i saw just now? Love? Kinship?
Or just a battling war between families over rights, inheritance or perhaps more from their predecessors?
Paid Sex?
Divorces over arguments?
Incapability to accept whoever for whatever?
Bringing the Past into the future?
And for everything else?
I’m thinking, are we, fit enough to be parents for our kids in the future? Even if we are poor, are we able to bring the kinship and love to them?
Or will we get frustrated and become a ragefully vengeful person just because we are as poor as the rat in the church house?
Will we be straitened by all these burdens, problems and challenges for our upcoming Further developing adulthood?
Are we able not to only provide our offspring with food, water and a shelter but also Love, Warmth, Care and Concern?
Lastly: Are we even be fit enough to be married? THEN have children?
Money’s everything that could be provided to our children, they bring love and joy as well.. Well this statement.. I beg to differ.
Children are the love essences of many fond wishes, once they lived in that blissful happiness.
Love,
C.E
This was shared with me by Clar.isse.. thanks for the permission to put this up! =P
Me: I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
Gohonzon : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don’t know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.
Gohonzon : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results.
Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can’t figure out. Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
Gohonzon : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?
Gohonzon : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit.
That’s why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
Gohonzon : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. .
Gohonzon : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
Gohonzon : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer.
With that experience their life become better not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
Gohonzon : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant we be free from problems?
Gohonzon : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons
(to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you! are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading…
Gohonzon : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.Look inside.. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
Gohonzon : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
Gohonzon : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
Gohonzon : when they suffer they ask, “why me?” When they prosper, they never ask “Why me” Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.
Gohonzon : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
Gohonzon : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
Gohonzon : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs.
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Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. “Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that took our breath away! ” Believe that all powers are within ourselves.
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Alright.. as usual.. I will write something.. heres some kind of inspiration I gathered after the read..
Problems:
P-eople
r-elate
o-rdinary
b-urdens
l-argely
e-motionally
m-agnifying-ly
s-ubconsciously attached
Thanks again
Aunty!Love,
C.E
Good news! (For me at least) 
I’ll be getting a camera finally, misplaced my I-Mobile 902 sometime ago..
Well the camera that was attached to 902 was indeed great, took a lot of great shots with it too..
Goes to say, good things don’t last for too long.
I hope I’ll be able to grab some decent shots with the most time I have, I’m pretty sure I will suck at it, so please bear with me for now.
Love,
C.E
Heard this song playing on Gold90FM, got the lyrics online and i thought its really meaningful and well written..
I’m sharing this..
By the way if anyone has this song, can you send it to me? fujin02ATgmail
Artist: Whitney Houston
Album: Love Withney
Year: 2001
Title: All At Once
All at once
I finally took a moment.
And I’m realizing that.
You’re not coming back.
And it’s finally hit me all at once.
All at onceI’ve started counting teardrops.
And at least a million fell.
My eyes began to swell.
And all my dreams were shattered all at once.
Ever since I met you.
You’re the only love I’ve known.
And I can’t forget you.
Though I must face it all alone.
Chorus:
All at once I’m drifting on a lonely sea.
Wishing you’d come back to me.
And that’s all that matters now.
All at once I’m drifting on a lonely sea.
Holding on to memories.
And it’s hurt me more than you know.
So much more than it shows.
All at once.
I looked around and found that you were.
With another love.
In someone else’s arms.
And all my dreams were shattered all at once.
All at once the smile that used to greet me.
Brightened someone else’s day.
She took your smile away.
And left me with just memories all at once.
Ever since I met you.
You’re the only love I’ve known.
And I can’t forget you.
Though I must face it all alone.
Love,
C.E
email me at fujin02ATgmail.com if you want the 7mb version. 
comments please.
Hmm..
I’m not complimenting my quotes,poems or texts but dear readers, if you don’t mind, you are allowed to use what i type here, it would be greatfully polite if you could at least let me know with gratitude, then change the wordings or something and make it into yours.
Personally i don’t feel great when someone uses my words without asking or worse, denying or reasoning.
I gotta emphasize this, i’m not trying to compliment on my words.
Thank you guys so much, i will really appreciate this kind gesture.
Love,
C.E
Hi all !
I’m sorry for not writing in sooner.. been really busy with my personal stuff in and out.. Probably the reason why i didn’t have much time to think about things, hence my ideas for writings have declined slightly.
But no worries, i will write soon, infact i have some ideas in mind already. Thanks to my regular friends whom i chat with almost everyday.
For now, i’ll update a lil on my life,
December’s coming, i’m organizing my own birthday, gotta attend my friend’s wedding, my mom’s birthday, 2 other friend’s birthday, writing and sending xmas cards to loads of my friends and prolly to organize a X’mas or NY celebration between myself and friends.
December is a busy month! Especially when i have so much to plan for!
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The festive seasons of mull reasons
The joyous occasions with laughters and happiness
The festive greetings with words in white
The festive love are you and mine
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Live the Dreams
Laugh the smiles
Love the emotions
Highlight me!
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Love is just love itself and nothing else
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Signing off..
Love,
C.E
it happens about almost everyday that we would always seek for the truths
but truths are commonly not often occurred or told by anyone or by any environment.
so what makes a truth important?
For Better understanding?
Out of Curiosity?
Out of Hatred?
What good would it bring when you find out something truth?
I think we all carry some expectations at the very point of time when we’re about to hear the truth, just like all men, we just want to hear what appeases us.
But what if we don’t? What if we hear something we wouldn’t have expected?
Maybe i’m wrong, but sometimes, i try to be a little pessimistic yet more on being optimistic when im expecting something. I try not to expect too much for too little, however, i tend to be the one who gives more. often.
Give and don’t expect anything in return.
How many people are able to do that in a modern world like this?
when all the common activities we do everyday are like;
We work, for money
We pay more, and we get more
Are there anymore gratitude amongst humans?
Or whats left is just sheer bit?
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Comments please, i want to hear them.
Till then..
Love,
C.E
